eighty-four

here it is:
the last entry of the summer

i started this thing
with nothing but a few words
that wouldn't fit into construction
i tried so hard then,
digging deep for perfection
all adjectives and little substance

and things have changed
oh, so many things have changed

but it's over now
everything i never thought could happen
suddenly
closes
it's like a tv shutting off
for a second there's that box of blue
and then fading
snap
black

tomorrow i walk (drive) away
from atlanta for the last time
and i start the life that will take me to my own places
and i hope so much it's what i've wanted
and i can't think of if it's not
there's so much ahead of me this year
everything i've remembered i'll have to let go of
because life has to move forward
always forward
always forward

i'm holding the remote
but the battery's missing
the whole summer, i kept pressing
search
skip scene
but the movie slowed

tonight i'm pressing
pause
stop
rewind
and the movie has finally started moving
and all of my relationships are flying past
subtitles of goodbyes
the music is distorted
the voices sound funny
because everything is so wrong
because i don't belong anywhere anymore
and life is still going