ninety-five

you were there
facing me
and the place felt crowded but it didn't matter
i don't know where it came from
i can't find the worlds, i don't want to
but it fell on me
and i wanted to cry
"you, you, you, you,"
that's all you said when i asked
what you were thinking about
it was right there, all of you in love
in love with me, with me
you're covered in it, these feelings
i see myself when i look in your eyes
it makes me cry
and i did, all over your nice shirt
and you held me as i tried to
make myself breathe smoothly
but it was runny nose and short, staggered gulps
your whispered, "don't cry, please don't cry"
and i laughed at the absurdity
i've only just not found you
and you were here all along